moving on
just changed the time-settings on my lappie to reflect melb's time zone. it's taken a full month after singas to ride out the jet lag. for about a month i've glanced at the top right-hand corner and had to add 3 hours to the time it registered - just so i could pretend i was back home.
thinking about my recent trip back, i realise i've met up with most of the friends i'd intended to meet - some unexpected, and merely chanced upon, and, to my chagrin, i've forgotten to contact some friends i'd wanted to meet. it felt good to be back, surrounded in a humid cloud of the familiar.
and i've reinforced my odd trauma-attack brought about by phone conversations. maybe it's a late onset of mild, conversation-related autism. i just don't handle the whole 'instantaneous reaction' thing very well (not that face-to-face conversation was ever a cinch). the unease of not being able to tell the other party's expression and predict the response does not sit well with someone whose thinking-on-the-spot skills are well below socially accepted standards. it amazes me, sometimes, when i think of how friends doing marketing/business are so quick on the uptake. uh-uh. not happening here... i need lecture notes and tutorials just to comprehend stuff sometimes.
it's most comfortable to be hiding behind an alternate persona, and allowing a bit of reality to peek through at my discretion once in a while. IMs, emails and snailmail are the way to go. no pressure for an immediate response, and lots of time to doctor my reaction.
anyways. downloaded these pretty nifty photoshop CS brushes off jason today. via dooce, whose site i visit semi-religiously. adobe's good. keeps me distracted from my readings, yet requires none of the stress of having to predict responses. just click, apply, scrutinise, undo, and redo. no mess. no trauma. QED*. (this appeared frequently at the end of math problem solutions. in those damnable ten-year-series compilations of exam questions just about every student in junior college were pressured to indulge in. and. i. hated. it.)
*QED - quite easily derived/done, i think. unless my friends in JC were pulling a fast one on me - a fast one that has lasted a decade now.
eep. am on the fast track to becoming an otaku.
thinking about my recent trip back, i realise i've met up with most of the friends i'd intended to meet - some unexpected, and merely chanced upon, and, to my chagrin, i've forgotten to contact some friends i'd wanted to meet. it felt good to be back, surrounded in a humid cloud of the familiar.
and i've reinforced my odd trauma-attack brought about by phone conversations. maybe it's a late onset of mild, conversation-related autism. i just don't handle the whole 'instantaneous reaction' thing very well (not that face-to-face conversation was ever a cinch). the unease of not being able to tell the other party's expression and predict the response does not sit well with someone whose thinking-on-the-spot skills are well below socially accepted standards. it amazes me, sometimes, when i think of how friends doing marketing/business are so quick on the uptake. uh-uh. not happening here... i need lecture notes and tutorials just to comprehend stuff sometimes.
it's most comfortable to be hiding behind an alternate persona, and allowing a bit of reality to peek through at my discretion once in a while. IMs, emails and snailmail are the way to go. no pressure for an immediate response, and lots of time to doctor my reaction.
anyways. downloaded these pretty nifty photoshop CS brushes off jason today. via dooce, whose site i visit semi-religiously. adobe's good. keeps me distracted from my readings, yet requires none of the stress of having to predict responses. just click, apply, scrutinise, undo, and redo. no mess. no trauma. QED*. (this appeared frequently at the end of math problem solutions. in those damnable ten-year-series compilations of exam questions just about every student in junior college were pressured to indulge in. and. i. hated. it.)
*QED - quite easily derived/done, i think. unless my friends in JC were pulling a fast one on me - a fast one that has lasted a decade now.
eep. am on the fast track to becoming an otaku.
posted by limegreenspyda at 11:31:00 pm
2 Comments:
i also want to be an otaku !!
haha. call me nerd please !!!
perhaps i can grow that long hair and look the part first. LOL
lexie: haha maybe you didn't need to look at it all that often! :)
kachuaz: nerd no need to have long hair wat!
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